Sunday, May 19, 2013

Life as we know it

Schwinn Turismo Swivel Wheel Double Jogging Stroller Color: Red/Gray 
Our latest purchase! R bought this for 85$ on Craiglist from an uber rich lady who used it twice and decided she didn't like jogging. Sweet! Things have been pretty surreal since we found out we were having twins. Kinda foggy really. Still trying to get a grip on this. R traded her 94 convertible mustang Sally for a sporty mom-mobile:
                                         

And just when we thought things were going according to plan, R's position at the hospital was cut. She works something called Baylor which means she works every weekend of the year in exchange for getting paid for a full time job. So she works 24 hours on Sat and Sun and gets paid as if she worked all week. It sucked at first giving up the weekends with her but we made it work and any shift past those days she picked up was overtime. Well, the hospital gave everyone raises and then cut every baylor position. This means that we will be losing about 10 g's in salary and R's job is kinda in limbo right now.  It is super stressful because we had a budget based on that previous income that will soon be gone. It looks like it will be ramen noodles for a while. I don't know how we will do it but I know we will. R has always made me feel secure and even though I am scared to death about the future I can't help but believe we're gonna be ok. I'm feeling very "que sera sera" lately.





And just when I didn't think I could pile anymore shit on the already thin paper plate that we call life, I got my acceptance letter for my RN-BSN program that starts this fall.  Part of me thinks I should wait, but they only accept new applicants in the fall and wouldn't be able to apply again until 2014. It's all online so it's definitely doable, but I know I am going to be dog- tired once the kiddos arrive. R is super supportive and thinks I should do it. I have until July 1st to decide. I might just start and if it gets to be too much, I can switch to part time next year. I worked two jobs to put myself through nursing school the first time and there were some nights where I would come home-take a 2 hour nap and go to clinical or class and then right back to work. I know I am capable of it again. I just want to be a good mom and be here and present for my family. It's hard for me not to shake my fists at the gods, especially considering the blessings that we have been given, but I can't help but feel as though they are indeed laughing at us right now.


5 comments:

  1. Wow! A lot of changes, but many of them exciting. You never know how much you can tackle until you try!

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  2. Love the stroller and the car! I am sure things will end up working out for R's job. And I would definitely do the online BSN program. I did mine at western governor's university, they accept new applicants on a monthly basis and you can start whenever you would like. It's also self paced so in other words each semester is 6 months and in that time you can take as many classes as you want. When the classes are assigned you will have all of the assignments at once and complete them whenever you can. I ended up finishing mine in 11 months. And better yet, the hole thing was only $8,000. Let me know if you have any questions! Goodluck!

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  3. Lots of changes that seem to always happen all at once but don't let this discourage you from anything in life. Sometimes we are given more than we can possibly even imagine of handling but it always works out in the end and after we make it through that hump we look back and laugh at the stress we caused ourselves! I am thinking about you!

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  4. Everything always has a away of working out! You two will be great and get through this no problem!! Love the stroller!!

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  5. I'm sure things will work out! Sorry you are having so many bumps, but it will be great soon! I think you should do the nursing classes! Hang in there!

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